I have a friend that seems to be bipolar when it comes to our friendship. (if that even makes sense) Some days we talk all the time and make plans to hang out and she takes an interest in my life but at other times she completely ignores me and seems to not even want to be associated with me. She seems to talk to me when it's convenient for her. This has been going on for about 2 years now.
This past October and November were really good months with our friendship and I thought that we were on a good note of making our friendship strong again but then this past week or so, she's back to her old ways. It's really just starting to frustrate me and I really don't know what to do anymore. I always seem to come back to the same conclusions, is it something I did or said to make her act this way or is this just how she is? We've been friends for about 5 years now and during our first 3 years as friends it wasn't like this at all. She use to be my closest friend and we would tell each other everything. I've always been one to show a genuine interest in my friends lives and I let them know that I am there for them and that I care... I just don't know what to think anymore when it comes to this one friend.
The only times that I really ever get to see her is when we are at church and sometimes then she never says a word to me. I'm just frustrated and at loss for what to do. I know you can't expect your friends to have their lives revolve around you and that is not what I am meaning or saying by any of this. Maybe I'm trying to live in the past and get our friendship back to where it use to be when that is no longer an option. I really don't know. These past 2 years this friendship has made me feel so sad at times. There have been days where it seemed like I was going to lose a great friend. I know we might not be as close as we once were but I do still cherish our friendship and would hate to lose a friend. When we do talk and hang out, we have a lot of fun together and have had some pretty great memories come about! Maybe I'm just over thinking the situation, I tend to do that at times.
Lord, I'm at a loss and I just feel like giving up. I don't know where you are leading me but I do know that all I have to do is put my trust and faith in you. You know this friendship better than I do and you know where it is heading. I pray that you will reveal it to me, in your timing. I pray that you will help to heal that hurt that I have been carrying in my heart and that you will just ease my spirit and give me strength and peace that only you can give. I pray that you will be with her as well. I don't know what is going on in her life, which may be the cause of some of this, so I pray that you will just comfort her and let her know that you are there with her every step of the way. And I pray that you will be with me and help me to stay true to my words. In Christ Jesus I pray, Amen!