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Saturday, 24 January 2009

  • Is Giving Up The Only Option Left?

    You can only try soo much until there is nothing left.
    You give it your all and sometimes that's just not enough.
    Giving up never seemed so hard until now.
    If it was worth saving, all your efforts would have been more than enough.
    Maybe, just maybe, there is another way to approach this.
    Make it true. God take all control.
    I can't do this alone anymore.
    I don't want to give up but I see no other options.
    Open my eyes to see what I have been lacking from the start.
    God, I give you all control.
    Take me. Consume me. Use me.
    Take all the hurt, pain and sorrow.
    Make me realize that you are always here for me no matter what.
    And to not wait until I'm in over my head to turn to you.

    I'm ready to fly,
    I'm ready to soar
    I'm ready to leave this world behind.
    I'm ready to open up the door
    I'm ready to fly,
    I'm ready to spread my wings across the sky
    I think it's time
    I'm ready to go
    I'm ready to fly.
    Currently
    Ready to Fly
    By FFH
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Wednesday, 14 January 2009

  • (Insert Title Here)

    I'm getting nervous already. I start at HU on the 26th of this month. I have yet to register for any classes so hopefully I can get that done soon. I'm not a very outgoing person, so going into a new environment is going to be challenging for me and this time I will know absolutely no one ahead of time. At least at BSU, I had a few friends that went there as well so that made the transition from High School to College better. This is going to be a major step out of my comfort zone. But this past year, God has done a lot to present me with new situations where I had to step out of my comfort zone so this is just another one of those times. I just gotta take a deep breath, God can get me through anything. There is nothing to be nervous about or afraid of. I've got about a week and a half before my life gets flipped upside down. Like I've heard many times before, God wouldn't throw anything at you that you can't handle. Well, I've got things to do. So keep me in your prayers as I start this new phase in my life. Thanks!


    God Bless <3

Friday, 02 January 2009

  • Hello 2009

    It's been 2009 for 2 days now. It doesn't feel like it. Although, what does a new year really feel like? I didn't make any New Year resolutions. I stopped making those a few years ago. Main reason was because I hardly never follow through with any of them. So now I just set goals for myself and things that I want to do. Those I usually keep and I can make them at any time not just something to think about around New Years...

    Life has been alright lately. Nothing too exciting to report. I was accepted to HU! Never heard from IWU so if I don't like HU then I will transfer to IWU next fall, since right now IWU is the one I have my heart set on. When I visited back in October the school seemed to suit me and felt right. It took me awhile to feel that at BSU and with IWU I felt it immediately! So, unless God has different plans for me, right now I'm going to HU this spring with the hopes of transferring to IWU for fall semester. With all the praying I've done with this school situation, this seems to be where God is leading me. I never thought in a million years that I would be majoring in Missions but going on a Mission Trip last March and then Ridgecrest back in August really changed my thinking on all that. God has definitely been working in my life this past year! I'm excited to see what He has in store for me this new year!


    Peace. Hope. Love. <3

Sunday, 23 November 2008

  • Happy Birthday To Me :)

    It's 2:18 am and I can't sleep...
    Today is my 21st Birthday!!!!!!!!!
    So excited!!!
    Maybe that's why I can't sleep
    Who knows...
    I've got church this morning
    I wish I could sleep so I wouldn't be tired at church
    I just love my church
    The people are great and so encouraging!
    And then tonight is my church's Thanksgiving Dinner
    I'm so glad I get to go this year
    I haven't been to one since my senior year
    Because I've always been away at school
    But this year that isn't an issue
    And I get to celebrate my birthday :)
    Not sure what I will be doing yet
    My mom made me my favorite cake, Angel Food Cake!
    Can't wait to eat some, yuumm!! haha
    I'm going to make and hope that this day will just be a great day for me
    I want to have a really good birthday
    What would make it even better is if I got to see my Muncie and BCM friends
    But I doubt that will happen and it's ok
    I have my family, church family, and a few other friends here that I get to see on my birthday!
    Well, I'm going to try to get some sleep...
    I'm wide awake right now so lets hope I can fall asleep :)
    Good night all!!!

Saturday, 25 October 2008

  • November, What a Wonderful Month!

    November is only ONE week away!!!
    This is a month that I am really looking forward too
    So many wonderful things will be happening!

    November 1st is my Church's Fall Festival
    I get to help plan all of the games for the night
    And I am looking forward to a fun night with my Church family

    November 4th is Election Day
    This is the first Presidential Election that I get to vote in
    I haven't quite decided who I'm voting for yet
    But I am going to be careful with my choice
    We all need to remember that God is in control
    He already knows who will be our next President
    We just got to put our faith and trust in Him that he will provide no matter the outcome

    November 9th 9 youth in my Church are going to be baptized :)
    I don't know the youth to well since I was away at college for 2 years
    But I hear some will be giving their testimony
    So I am looking forward to getting to know the youth group
    And then afterwards we are having a carry-in lunch for them

    November 18th is my Church's next WMU meeting (Women's Group)
    Since I am temporarily in charge of it I get to plan this meeting
    I don't know what we will be doing yet
    And I am still scared about leading them as well
    Although this is the 2nd meeting I will be doing
    I know one reason why I am scared is because I don't see how I can lead them
    I am younger than all of them in the group and I am still growing with Christ
    I really don't think this is something I can do
    That's why I'm glad I'm only in charge until I go back to school
    (Which I'm hoping is as soon as January)

    November 23rd is my 21st Birthday!!!!!!
    This is a day that I am really looking forward to
    Not because I can legally drink
    I don't even think I will drink, I've seen what it can do to people
    I had an uncle that was an abusive drunk and drinking just scares me
    I know people say to drink responsibly
    And that just because he was that way doesn't mean you will be
    I know all that, this is just my opinion on the subject
    I might try a drink and I will drink responsibly but that is it
    I am looking forward to my birthday because it is my birthday :)

    November 23rd is also my Church's Thanksgiving Dinner
    I am looking forward to fellowship with them
    And I'm glad I get to go to it
    The past 2 years I couldn't because of being at school

    November 25th is the release of Jeremy Camp's new CD
    "Speaking Louder Than Before"
    I am looking forward to that because Jeremy is my favorite Male Artist
    I own all 5 of his CDs and am looking forward to this one
    I have heard a few songs off of it and it sounds like it is going to be an amazing CD

    November 27th is Thanksgiving
    A fun holiday spent with my dad's family
    We don't get to see my mom's family as often since they live far away
    But it is still a good holiday with my dad's family

    And that is pretty much what I am looking forward to in November
    (As of right now anyways!)